Getting your shit together is hard

So I have been on the hunt for another job. I am not satisfied of where I am with my current employer. So the best thing I can do in order to accomplish my goal for coming out here is to add another employer. It will also get me out of the bed and see some damn daylight for once. LOL. But I have been extremely stressed on a situation that I felt I had no control over. I kept thinking that I have exercised all of my options in order to get what I need from this job. Now although I have done a lot in order to better my job experience here, I know deep down inside I can do so much more.

Now I know what you are thinking. Well why not have the program you went through help you out? Yes. I've thought about that too. But after my last interaction with a certain person there about my job. I have decided that I wasted my money on this damn program and realized that I will not get the help and support I need from them. Except for one person who works there. And is super amazing. But I don't know if she can do anything from halfway across the world. She has been there for me and helped me since day 1. And honestly the the only reason why I started recommending the company in the first place. In hopes that whoever goes through with it will get her. I can go on and on about how she made this transition so much easier for me. Even when I arrived in Sydney the first day and I called her for advice and questions. The best support I've had since I started working with them.

Anyway, so since I have to figure this shit out myself, I am looking for another job. Now my other roommates both work at the same restaurant. And they are both leaving in about two weeks. So we occasionally chat and I told them about my situation at work. They so very kindly told me to apply at their job. Which has 3 different types of restaurants. Including a cafe that opens at 6:30am. So I was like, this is perfect for me because I am only allowed to work at night for some dumb ass reason. But I checked the website out and sent in my resume. Which I think looks pretty good. Yet, my roommate told me to physically go in there because they are desperate. And I'm like that's perfect because so am I. So I went in today, not knowing it was busy as fucking hell. I haven't seen business like that since the fucking Cheesecake Factory. That gave me so much hope for the future. LOL.

I met with the manager for about 5 seconds. He told me that he will look at my resume and call me next week. When I woke up this morning I was very optimistic and hopeful. But after meeting with him, I didn't quite feel so optimistic. I know it was because he was busy, but I did feel a little brushed off. Then it got me thinking. Is there something about me that is off putting to people? Like is it a physical appearance? is it my attitude? I think I'm pretty charming when I first meet people. But I will be sitting here waiting for a call. or an email. Even  though sometimes it's hard to remember and recognized, I am not a quitter. My pride and will wont let me. So I'll say some prayers and keep my fingers crossed. Shit maybe I'll do some voodoo or magic or something. Anything to get another job and get out of this funk I'm in. I want to finally truly enjoy my experience here.

Here some photos

I don't even remember taking this picture. It's somewhere in the harbour.

The view from my hostel window. LOL. I was super bored that day. But that is Central Station.

Me practicing my National Geographic photo taking.