Aussie adventures: Mo money mo problems

So there is this guy. Yeah yeah, OMG Christen is interested in a guy. I get it. It's a big shocker to me too. Now I have never made the first move in my life. Like ever. It's just something I don't do. Mostly because I was always too shy or embarrassed. Also I had a big fear of rejection. But I have learned, that it is stupid to be afraid of rejection. And like Jay-Z once said: "On to the next one. On on to the next." So making the first move with this guy was a huge step for me. I mean, first off, I didn't even know he was interested in me. I just thought whenever I saw him, he was just being nice to me. Which is what I automatically assume with all guys. Regardless if they are interested in me or not. If they don't come out and say, Hey Christen I like you, then I am not going to know that they do. And still even then, it's tricky for me to realize it. Talk about being oblivious.

Anyway, I met him at a night club that I go to every Friday. Cause this club is Fa Free every Friday. But he works as a bouncer there. So every time my girls and I go, I always have some fun flirty conversations with him. Now, I may not know when a guy likes me, but I definitely know when I am being flirt. Even though I pretend that I don't know I do. Every single time. So yes, I would flirt with him. But not on purpose. I just couldn't help myself. I'm like all cute and charming and shit. It's in my blood. So a couple weeks ago, my friends where telling me how he likes me. And I am like, naw bro. He's just being nice. He talks to everyone it's kinda his job. So they were like, No bitch. He is definitely interested in you. So the following time we went, I paid a little more attention to when he talked to me. And I realized that they were right. Or so I had assumed.

Now when I talk to a new guy, I have some very effective rules that I like to stick to. Because I know they work. And because I am trying to get the feel of how I feel about the guy before I feel like I've wasted my time. But this time was oh so different. I broke all of my rules and just dove head in. So I asked him for his number and texted first. The first night was cool. We chatted a little when he got off work. I understand he works a lot and normally gets off at around 4 in the morning. Cool. I get it. But since we had exchange numbers, I have been the only one initiating anything. trying hard to make our schedules work so that we can hang out. And now I am so confused. Because he doesn't show or acts as if he is interested in me. I mean granted, he never came out and said anything about being interested in me. But I told him that I was definitely wanted to get to know him more.

But I thought if you consistently ignore others around the person you are trying to talk to, and constantly flirt with them and compliment them on their appearance; Or even ask them questions to try to get to know them better, then that meant you were at least semi interested in them. Right? But now that I think about it, maybe he just wanted to be friends. Now I kind of feel like a crazy bitch. Because I think I caught feelings for him. And I don't know where or how the hell that happened. I barely even know the guy. But I do want him to like me more than a friend. I mean I am so sick of being one of the damn homies. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy my male friends and I am one of the best wing-mans out in these streets. Yet at some point, I want more for myself than that. I am an awesome ass person. If I was a guy, I totally would date my fine ass. But it is hard out here for a pimp. So yeah. Guess my feelings about this situation has became irrelevant.

Then something crazy happened last night though. So because I live right in the center of club central, after they close, I can hear everyone trying to get home. Just all the drunk people. Now last night, I didn't go out because I got off work pretty late. So I just stayed in and netflixed. I went to bed around 2:30 am. Just dozed off. Around 3 or so, I was awoken by a couple arguing. Now Most of the time I don't care about the people arguing outside, but something told me to take my earplugs out and listen to them. So I came in at the end of it and all I heard was them screaming profanities at each other. But what really caught my interest about this particular couple was that the guy involved, sounded exactly like the guy I am trying to talk to. Then I hear the girl say his name. and my ass just had to look out the balcony after I heard her say his name.

So that is what a nosy bitch did. I jumped out of bed and looked over my balcony. I didn't see the girl because she had got in a car by the time I looked. But I did see the guy I am suppose to be talking to crossing the street. Like, what are the odds that he is arguing with some girl right outside of my apartment building. It was the strangest ting ever. Then of course, my very colorful mind went wild with questions. Should I confront him? Was it actually him that I saw? Is that his girlfriend that he was talking too? Am I fighting to become someone side bitch? What the hell where they arguing about? Now I don't know why, but that really shook me up. So even though it was 3:30 in the morning, I had to text Sherelle. Because I knew this bitch would be up. I told her what happened and she was in as much disbelief as I was.

Now it's not about the fact that he was arguing with another woman. Fine whatever, not my business. What was interesting was that they were arguing in front of my apartment. Out of all the places, they were there. And I woke up to hear the ending part of it. I mean, if that was his girlfriend, Then it would explain so many things. But I don't feel like I have the right to ask him about it. Plus what would I even say? Yeah I heard you arguing with a woman outside my apartment in the middle of the night, so I peeked to listen? Then I would really seem like a crazy bitch. Sherelle said it was meant for me to hear them. But we can't figure out why. I find it creepy as shit though.

Well here's some photos.